Wellity wellity wellity. Today was spent frustrate wittgensteining. I just can't get the picture theory. In many ways its so obvious, but I just have a mental block. Problems moreover with wisdom tooth, think it broke, but no pain. Scared as always thereby, need go dentist. Give me, o someone, the strength to change my ways. Apart from that not much to report. I am mainly writing in an attempt to stop the fond fantasies which i've talked much about re mc. i go into the last week of term more or less despondent; really, what can happen? I play scenarios thru the night; that we walk somewhere and that she professes her love etc. It's beguiling, being human, that we can be charmed by what isn't. No I must laschiare ogne speranza; really, its ridiculous the extent to which things happen when you don't expect them, and don't when you do. I need to empty my head really.