As was perhaps sadly predictable, my blogging activity has fallen away. However, things have been at least periodically vaguely interesting. Well, that's a damned exaggeration, but anyway. Last week I was forced to go to a party; not a young person party admittedly, but strangers standing talking in a room at least, and all the rest of the rancid monkey jism entailed by any instantiation of partyhood. And it was... exhausting, but not as depressing as it could have been. I rediscovered that I have a slight capacity for forced civility. If I could harness more effectively this rather puny power then indeed to be reckoned with in society a force I could be. Specifically I can think of requisite shitty jokes and requisite shitty small talk, and give a relatively convincing impression of a zoon politikon. The problem is, like a man wearing a drawn on beard for disguise under hot interrogation lights, it soon wears off. When this happened during the party, it being located in a place and staged by a host known to me I could slope off to a bedroom and lie down. However, should I desire to harness my meagre skills elsewhere, I would need to arrange it in timed slices, so that the disguise would hold out.
Secondly of all, this very day, nay nary a 1hr a go, I entertained en famille some strangers. Amongst them was an infant. I quite like children; they're less boring and bored than adults, they're more interested in thgins. Also the human adult male among them was a nice and funny guy, and I think I socialized relatively well.
Now I desire some form of sociality. This we can take as given. And so, perhaps, little by little I am heading towards a less avoidant ( tho in fairness both incidents above were nigh on impossible to shirk) Seinsmodalitaet. Of course, it were surely cloying to end on such a positive note, a problem which this sentence has disposed of.