Ah life, thou spritely little thing. Hope deferred and all that. Well, how are the holidays shaping up for me? Been dentist, been gym, excogitating some innaresting stuff both logic wise and religion wise, but there remains the old problems, that, well, I'm what I am, unpeopled and unserene thereat, and hope does indeed attend me, and let's just hope that hope'll be made real. To look back on a life of unrealized hope! But I shouldn't even think about that shit. I do tend to believe that it is possible to gain what one wants, but when it's, the final frontier, human contact, to misquote the simpsons, well, there my confidence isn't so great, for confidence gaineth support inductively likesay as the bible has it.
And moreover moreover moreover, it's ridiculous, well kind of, that I should blemish my life with complaints thereabouts, to the extent that I get to spend my time doing what I like etc., my family are happy, more or less, or are such that my happiness is a function of theirs, and I am aiming for mine, unlike in time gone by. One can just propel oneself forwards. That's all there is to it.
Anyway, I continue religiousing, tho I fell off the wagon. Been augmenting my biblestew with a bit of bhagavadgita, and some relatively mediocre book on buddhism. I would like, without going nuts about it, to purify myself, sort of like a summer clean, mainly physical, and perhaps attempt to face up to the howling dismal woe that deep down makes me unable to stop for a moment.
Deep, huh? But anyway, we all have our own, I think, HDW, we all feel, or at least many people, alienated from others, driven constantly to distraction ( not what that phrase means I'm sure but who cares)