Nothing really to say but yet I am saying. No mc action today, when she should have been in class, lamentably. Overall was as calm as I have been in a long while today; not that i'm usually terribly uncalm, but there is a perpetual if not knot then kink in my belly. Plan: hope that she comes to class tomorrow, hope that something happens. That, a) there is an occasion, and that b) I take it. Please world, oedipus me, to put it negatively indeed. I guess the fact that i'm going home this weekend takes the sting out of it; i won't have to endure the lonely weekend that would have resulted hopeless had nothing happened and hopeful but still lonely had it had. Gosh, this is dull.